I am back, but this time as a new mom to Theodore Edward Miller. I have been very absent, because I have been learning, coping and developing my niche in motherhood. Not that there are millions of you reading, but I do tell myself someone out there reads this or cares.
So far motherhood has been interesting. It started at 41 weeks when I was induced, and had to have an emergency c- section. Luckily, we both came out safe and healthy. After having to be in the hospital for two days it was time to Go home.
When we got home it was not all easy and restful nights. With in the first four months of his life, Theodore had one surgery that included three procedures. Then we learned he had GERD, Severe Acid Reflux, and milk protein intolerance, a possible ocular albinism and vision problems. It took a while to figure it out, but we were able to with the help of several doctors, medicine, special formula, and specialists. It has been emotional, and hard (often I did not reach out to many bc I did not want to hear a pitty party or that they could relate) but I have learned as a mom you power through and great support is therapeutic.
Now at six months Theodore is 16 lbs 25 inches, he is beginning therapy and we are in the process of resolving his eye issues. There are many things that I never thought I would have to endure or that our son would have to endure before he was 6 months old. I know it could be worse but often I ask….”why us” but I know that God only gives you what you can handle. He must have known what we needed and could handle. Not only did we have to work through this as parents, but how Keith and I would work through it as a couple.
Theodore Edward is a gift and I will, report to duty, every single day to be his mommy. Also, I will do it will all my strength, to be a role model for him.